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hey guys welcome back to ebbs and flows where we talk about the highs and lows on and off the field
we're excited today a couple old teammates
you guys best friends i didn't speak for about a year and a half oh really is it a bit of drama
i wouldn't know when he went to rabbit eyes he was the first bloke never changed clubs and
just went really in his head you wouldn't understand you've never changed clubs with
my brother he reminds you when he does a favor for you i'll tell you that oh he does all right
so let's see boys thanks for jumping on obviously latty been um sitting in this chair so um do you
enjoy the podcasting journey when you're in it and i've seen you've been bouncing around a few
podcasts lately what's been happening yeah mate i i said to you obviously i i i love to have a chat
and um being on that side being on that side of the microphone where you know you've got to let
them speak and um you know listen take it in and then roll on with other questions but i loved it
hey i really enjoyed it and yeah done a few other parties lately but i've obviously mentioned to you
about
me and jimmy potentially doing something at the end of the year so uh mate might be on the other
side of the mic a fair bit more what else you're doing we'll get there man you don't need to jump
the gun mate you know uh saucy how are you bro yeah i'm good i'm good man yeah so it's been a
pretty busy year um a bit all over shop but i'm i'm in a good place now so that's good first time
i have three kids um yeah obviously like someone asked before like how'd you get your nickname
sauce like how did that sort of come about because i don't even know it's a good question um i wish it
was a good story about it but i was just in the 20s i think nathan pete's um and adam reynolds were
trying to figure out a nickname for me and then they go man saw man sauce and it just stuck ever
since oh yeah and then there was yeah it was a time where i went to take this highball and i
was spinning in the air and i got called man saucer and i was yeah that's it man that's that
i wish it was a better story we should have added jst to that bro and you're talking that fast
i had two copies just pop a vowel in his dream oh i had to keep him around and then i was mancering
ourselves and yeah that's the story uh let's see you've had a few nicknames in your time um give us
give us a couple of your favorites over the years look i'm not even gene up but at the moment i'm
copying john cena a lot which i love like i cop it out a few times on the weekend off man is that
because they can't see you at the bar no no isn't that what he does yeah oh my shirt no just obviously
same definition looks uh mate ron perlman our farm sons of anarchy i don't know if i really
like that one that was the og wasn't it that was when we're at the warriors together i dressed up
as him on the 2011 mad monday um but yeah similar eyes and stuff similarities no none but um horse
monkey gorilla huh just my features on my face luna park um donkey but that's not for my face
awesome one off the never-ending story that's a yeah the dog is that the dog what is that thing
i think ian henderson called me out of the warriors when i was a young bloke growing up in
port macquarie i was goose as well it's funny you say that because i played a ridges game at
port mac one time and one of your mates rocked up and he's like how's goose going
once i become lat so i grabbed onto that and held on to that yeah not the goose or not ron perlman
john cena i might get start getting people call me jc a lot of a lot of animals in there yeah a lot
a lot man i swear kids love me like kids love me and i reckon it's a mixture of all the animals in
my face and like i'm a big friendly teddy bear i'm a big teddy bear i'm a big teddy bear i'm a big teddy
bear um and then also transitioned into the goat a little bit later yeah how did that sort of come
about yeah so uh nrro so that was uh that was more my off-field stuff and um the cam smith thing when
i uh tried to play the ball fast off my back and hit him in the nuts even though he was cramping
my face with these ball bags um so that was off the back of that and a few other things that
happened off the field um roast he started giving me the goat but i just really trying
to make clear i know it's got nothing to do with my rugby rugby league ability how did you react to
that being called to go he would have been pumped i love it i do you know i'm the people's champ
anyway so i'm getting around high five and go even though like it's half a mock i don't care it is
what it is all right so so today's sort of episode um we're going to talk about transitioning outside
of football and we're very different stages i'm i think i'm like six years out you're about three
and a four coming up and yeah so always sort of be like a good sort of way to transition but
i don't want to like overlook your guys careers um saucy obviously had a wonderful career and
still going what's some of the highlights from your career because you've done it all
man honestly the biggest highlight for me is just playing with my best mates man honestly like the
memories that you create it's just it's the best ever man like i was lucky enough to play at new
south wales and for australia but just the bond that you create with mates like obviously guys
like latsy just that's priceless man honestly honestly it's the best ever just just catching
up with lads haven't seen him in a long time yeah and yourself just sharing stories all war stories
yeah lots of fire in my belly um the show's because they're ebbs and flows and you guys
sum that up pretty well moods i used to call you guys the emotional roller coasters and
the ups and downs um do you want to talk about some of the downsides of your career
uh downsides definitely probably have to be injuries um you know early in my stage early
stages of my career should say like it's just pure joy when you're playing rugby league you
know you're obviously living the dream and you're having a good time with your mates and
i feel like at the back in your career you kind of get a larger perspective about it um
obviously when you're getting injured you know the highs and lows with that the work you have to
put in on and off the field mentally and physically um but also towards the back end of my career i've
kind of started noticing you know the transitioning away from rugby league and that's kind of been a
bit of a challenge for myself um you know there's those times where i was like you know what i'm
done this is it this is my last year but then there's times where i kind of just get reeled
back in and you know this just comes back to the person i am i'm pretty passionate um you know as
a little kid like all of us we've always dreamed to play in the nrl so it's not something easy to
give up and you know i've always dreamed to play in the nrl so it's not something easy to give up and
i think the biggest fear for me is obviously falling into something that i'm also just as much
as passionate about um which i don't know i think i don't think we'll ever be you know parallel but
um you know hopefully i'll find that one day um man of lebanese culture i love living these people
so like inviting and family oriented and obviously food's really great and the best ever i'm always
in a rush to drive somewhere not him how many flat toys did he used to get driving the train
hey i've got another flat that was just like no you weren't that was legit no way we used to
eat i i'd come 40 minutes from my house to meet him he was coming five minutes and every day he'd
be 10 minutes late so i got caught in traffic it was just he put more of an importance on his time
than mine so he's the only lebanese guy never in a hurry he's on fiji time he's coming in like the
day i found out i was going to debut i actually had a flat tire but uh yeah no it's true um sort
of roll back off that question what was like the lebanon experience and playing for for that because
there's there's like australia new south wales playing in grand finals all that stuff's going to
be great from a surface level but in terms of actual culture and i felt this because i was
lucky enough to play for kiwis but when i played for cookies it was just kind of like a little bit
different yeah because culture's like a little bit different do you want to talk about that
experience definitely um paying for australian and lebanon like massive difference in my eyes
um obviously paying for australia so many more cultures um having the opportunity to play for
the country of your birth was definitely one of my highlights of my career but also to represent my
culture was it was something special man like it's it's hard to put into words exactly but
i think um i should say early in my career like it was always it's a bit hard like there's always
this perception on being lebanese and you know it was you know negative and positive whatever
it might be but um i wasn't as outspoken as i am now about and how proud i actually am about
being lebanese so going to camp everyone embracing each other getting to know a bit more about my
heritage like i was fortunate enough to go in 2009 and that was a massive eye-opening experience like
i met uncles aunties for the first time and just to speak to them and hang out with them and you
know just break bread with them it was like i've known him for my whole life like i was 19 at the
time and you know my dad unfortunately hasn't been back since he was 17 years old so to kind of
understand his upbringing like me and my dad don't have the kind of best relationship like
we're not really that tired but we do um keep in touch from time to time but to kind of get
an understanding of his kind of childhood kind of makes sense to kind of about his life and
how it's panned out for himself um but yeah again like to share that that trip in the last
world cup that was one of the best experiences of my life like i was i was contemplating on going or
because um i had no contract um and if you get injured like all that all that going through my
mind i've got a family um i had a lot going on in the background so uh i took it as an opportunity
what's that
we'll get to you later yeah it's your time bro you go no no oh good thanks for that
um but yeah so i went over had a great time made so many more memories with mates and um come back
yeah that was good um sort of this conversation is going to go for a while but one thing
you can let go from penrith a week after or a couple days after the grand final
and i know you just went back out to penrith a couple weeks ago and mighta i don't know what
was that experience like one to go through it at the time straight after a gf and two to go back
basically your regular home i think like going back um finding out that you know i was kind of
leaving penrith i think if i had my chance again i'd probably change it like i've always changed it
I feel, yeah, it was a bit hard to take.
It was a hard pill to swallow,
especially like losing a grand final.
And, you know, two days later,
kind of having that conversation was a bit tough.
Do you reckon their timing's, is their timing weird?
Yeah.
So you still had a year to go on your deal?
Yeah, I still had one more year to go, but, you know.
Well, I guess from a coaching point of view,
they don't let you know a week before the grand final.
Well, mate, we're not going to keep you next year.
So I guess, you know, get the season done.
That happened to me at the Warriors.
Really? In 2011?
Yeah, yeah.
Remember Louis McLennan come in?
On the Wednesday before the grand final,
and we were like, oh, you guys, you played a fuss, eh?
Yeah, yeah, I'd already been released.
I got it early in the year, I thought, so that was all good.
I got my head around it for 10 weeks, and then I was sweet.
But yeah, no, like, and I guess that's Ivan's reasoning.
He doesn't want to let Saucy go, let him know the week of,
and we know our mate can hold on to things,
so we're going to let him know the week after the grand final.
Obviously, Hart, and he's a legend at the club.
Like, he was a guy who, Hart and Sol were in the locker room as well,
but rugby league is a business at the end of the day,
and, you know, you know.
I mean, I know that, and I found that out about seven times,
but it is what it is, right?
And you just got to take it on the chin,
and you obviously did and moved on.
So I obviously had some time to kind of, you know,
reflect and think about that situation,
and again, like you said, it is a business at the end of the day.
I was there for pretty much a quarter of my life,
so I really grew up at that club.
I went through the highs and lows, and, you know,
I'm an emotional person.
Like, I get really emotionally attached to things,
and I'm pretty loyal, I like to think, with my mates,
or especially with a club that I ever, whoever I play for.
So, again.
Like, it was a tough experience, but going back there.
Was that, like, good?
Unbelievable, man.
Yeah.
Like, I can't even put it into words again.
It's just, when I went there, like,
I haven't been there since 2020,
and just meeting the fans there, the smell of the joint, like.
What does it smell like?
Yeah, that DP, that grass, you know, that dew smell, you know?
Yeah.
That is a unique experience.
It is a unique experience to play out there in the middle of winter.
It's unreal.
I love it.
Yeah.
And.
Just the buzz of the place, man.
And obviously seeing all the old boys, like,
Jason Wrigley, the football manager, still there.
Seeing Ivan there.
Peter Wallace.
Seeing all the boys.
Spud.
Spud's still there.
Spud's still there.
Kevin Kingston.
Kevin Kingston.
Is Mearsie still there?
Who's that?
Is Mearsie still there?
No, I saw another old fella.
Because I went out there to present about something,
and I saw another old fella out there doing the gear.
So, Mearsie mustn't be there.
No, maybe not.
But, yeah.
Just to say how different the place is compared to when I first started.
Like, everything's just changed for the better.
But, yeah.
It's good to see where they're at now.
They're obviously doing something well,
and they could do a three-peat.
So, I hope so.
Crazy.
Yeah, it's crazy.
Speaking of old clubs,
Latsy, you'd probably have to take annual leave.
For every reunion.
We got the Penrith one the other day, actually.
I got there, too.
All the old boys.
I think that's the first one I've got off Penrith.
Oh, really?
I just found the email.
Yeah, maybe.
I don't know.
Maybe because I went out and presented to the boys, you know.
Shout out, I'm still alive.
So, you sort of bounce around clubs, and so did I.
But, what's some of the best lessons you learned through that experience?
Like, being regarded as a journeyman.
Like you said, very likable.
Yeah.
How's that skill set?
What was the skill set that you picked up during that time?
And what's the skill set from that that's helped you transition into where you are now?
Mate, massively.
Like, I think early on.
I remember when Chico, Chico always used to go,
you're a journeyman.
And then when he started to pick up a few clubs,
I couldn't wait to throw it back at him.
But, you know, I used to push back on him.
I'm not like a fucking journeyman.
I'm not a journeyman.
But then I started to embrace it.
And like you say, like, you know,
I feel like I got along with everyone.
At most clubs I played at.
Or every club I played at.
There's only probably one or two blokes I look back on
and I'm like, I couldn't really get along with him.
And you've got 30 to 36 blokes in a football squad.
So, you know, you've gone to an office.
You know, there's usually people hating each other across the office.
So, I feel like that was a skill of mine.
I can assimilate in with the New Zealand.
I played at the Warriors.
Me and Bogan, Jimmy Maloney rolled over there.
And, you know, we had Samoan, Fijian, Afghanistan, Cookie,
you know, white fellas, Aboriginal, Mooney.
Like, we had every.
We had every sort of culture there.
And, mate, we had a great mix back in that time in 2010-11.
But I think I can go into any room and, you know,
like I'm quite confident I can go and speak to most people.
I reckon that's definitely helped me in transitioning away from sport.
My network is now.
I'm starting to reap the benefits of that.
You know, four years after I retired with all the balls I got in the airs
and fingers in pies, which, you know, rugby league brought that to me.
And, you know, I faced, you know, adversity through Warriors.
Like, mate, we're not going to keep you next year.
You know, that hurts when you get told that at the time.
And I didn't have kids then, so I didn't have a greater perspective on life.
And, you know, I thought the world was ending.
But the reality is, a week later, the Dragons saw me.
Hey, shit, the sun's coming out again today.
But, you know, the adversities you face, like, both through injury,
getting told you're not wanted.
Mate, my first five years in the NRL, I played 50 games.
So, mate, I was like, me and Saul's moods, man.
I was up and down, up and down, up and down.
You got me the giant drop, the terror, terror.
But, yeah, I think that adversity just, you know,
and I've had a few challenges since I retired, which we can touch on later.
But, mate, I just feel like, yeah, the skills you learn through rugby league,
first, how to talk to people, network, assimilate into a group, leadership,
being able to get out of your comfort zone, being able to take feedback.
You know, you're always going to be in a good position after footy.
And I know business is target.
But elite athletes, because, especially team athletes,
because you've been able to perform in a team environment.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I was just trying to think of anything else.
On the back of that, honestly, like, I remember, like, again,
the start of my career, like, guys like Cameron Serrato, like, you know,
used to come up to me, give me lectures and, you know,
make sure you're doing your stretching, you're doing your 1%.
But, again, like, I just, I was just living the dream.
Like, it was just pure joy, you know what I mean?
But just the two comparisons, you know, you've got Ciro, who was, like,
on the, you know, on the out, finished his career, done,
but trying to just pass down that knowledge.
So, I feel like you have to experience the hard,
you have to experience the kind of the rollercoaster, like you said,
and that's when you kind of actually understand the kind of the lessons
out of it, if that makes sense.
Like, even you yourself, like, you know, making, telling me,
keeping in touch with me, make sure you do this, you know,
networking, like I said, was a very important thing.
And I was always scared of, like, kind of putting myself out there,
you know what I mean?
Like, I just, I don't know why.
That's probably another regret.
It's good, like, it's a footy thing, bro.
Yeah, 100%.
Like, you guys knew me around then, but I was into different things.
Like, I was into reading and taking photos.
I remember I was filming.
It was very different at the time.
Man, 100%.
And that's, you're outside the box, right?
Yeah.
The biggest excuse, like, footballers like you use is,
I've got no time.
That's the biggest fucking bullshit.
You've got more time than anyone in the world.
It's true.
Like, I just want to focus on footy and that's all good.
That's all good.
Focus on footy, Queen in the Nile on the day off.
What coffee aren't ordering?
Boys, we go on the TAB.
Three different cafes on the day off.
On Hinge.
You know, I kind of experienced it this year.
Like, I just got thrown a bit of a curveball and I was like,
shit, I don't know what I'm going to do now.
Like.
Yeah.
But, you know, fuck.
I just feel like you should always plan for at least five years ahead
and just do other things.
Like, footy is just not, footy is not everything.
Like, I totally get it.
Like, I feel like I'm one of the old guys.
You were that guy.
I'm one of the old guys.
I fucking lectured the young guys, you know what I mean?
But it's only through experience that,
and because I feel like I was forward thinking.
I was at uni, not that I'm using that degree at the moment.
Like, I was doing courses.
I was also going in and working on days off.
Like, I was going to learn mortgage broking.
But still, like, that transition,
into the real world, nothing prepares you for it.
Like, when you were doing that stuff,
I just could not get my head around how you had the time to do that.
Like, I just couldn't.
I couldn't understand it.
And, you know, you just find the time.
Like, you make things a priority.
That's, yeah, simple as that.
Sorry, just jumping in.
Like, I went and presented to over 28 boys.
Like, Kevin Kingston invited me, Joe Nullivar,
and who was the other one?
Simo, David Simmons, in to have a chat about our experience.
Oh, the Rev.
Couldn't have any more three different people.
The Priest and Jerry.
But, you know, we, you know, I told everything.
You know, I just let them know what my last few years were like
and what's been happening.
And my main thing was, like, especially that football team out there.
Mate, everyone loves the Penrith Panthers.
So, I'm like, boys, you need to leverage your brand
and who you are in the community
and go find something you're interested in.
Go spend a day a week learning something you want to do after footy.
See if they want to be an entrepreneur.
I'm going to say if someone wanted to ring you and go,
bro, can I come watch what you do on your days off?
Like, on my day off.
Or, hey, lads, I want to be a mortgage broker.
Hey, Josh Mansour, I want to be an NRL reporter.
You're such a burger.
You're such a burger.
But, like, there's all these, you know, avenues.
If you want to have a crack and explore it.
Tyrone Peachy, he's started his own business.
He's, like, doing it on his days off now.
What's he doing?
They're, like, picking up kids and taking them to school.
Like, yeah, he's got a couple of Hertz fans out there.
So, what's that?
What's the business?
Huh?
What's the business?
What's Tyrone doing?
Like, picking up kids and doing what with them?
Taking them to school.
I was just going to ask for his business plan.
I was just like, man, it's good to see you using your time
and you're not sitting around the house
and you're getting out and about
instead of staying at home like Josh
and sun's not out again, shut the blinds.
I see a lot of guys probably more in our position
than someone who's, like, saucy.
Like, I've seen Tino just sign a 10-year contract
and we would have been happy with a three.
You know what I mean?
But that does set you up later on in life.
What's some advice you could give people
who are in that middle tier?
Yeah.
They're not minimum wage or in our position
anywhere between 30 to 150 games or you're at 180.
What's some advice you could give those guys?
Because that was really important for me
because the way I used to see it is, like,
I'm an average guy here, but when I transition out,
I don't want to be average again.
Mate, 100%.
And I know you love Michael Luck, who I love as well.
And him and, like, my ex-wife Natalie,
like, they were my motivators to jump into a uni degree.
So, first, I think you need to find something
that keeps you distracted away from rugby league.
It's like you're reading and doing your courses
while you're playing because, again, like, yeah, okay,
you can probably have a coffee one day a week with the boys,
but you don't need to be going on every single day off
and spending time with the boys
who you're with every other day anyway.
I agree, bro.
That's a big one.
Yeah.
And I know some boys have families,
but still you need an outlet.
And my other thing is invest your money.
So, shout out, Elsie.
That's one of my businesses, boys, if you're watching.
Reach out.
But you need to invest your money and make it work for you, right?
So, you do have a short time frame.
So, even someone who's going to play 30 games,
you can build the right habits and investment strategies
irregardless of what you're earning.
And, mate, my last two years, I was on 100K,
like, playing in the NRL.
So, mate, there's boys out there now.
I think the minimum is nearly 150, 160K.
So, investment, use your time wisely,
whether it's education or find something you want to do after footy.
And I agree with that.
That networking thing you said of the old boys where, like,
I reckon once you transition out, you've maybe got a year and a half.
Unless you're making content like we've done and Scope done as well,
that kind of puts you back in front of everyone.
But that little year and a half transition,
best time to execute is when you're actually in football.
People answer calls when you're there.
100%.
I feel like, again, it's like there's two things.
Like, it's dropping the ego.
Like, put yourself out there.
You know what I mean?
Like, you never know what doors will open for you.
That's one thing.
And I feel like we get taken advantage sometimes as well,
like, as footballers.
I feel like people you can use us because obviously our brand
and stuff like that.
When players are talking about brand and stuff,
they don't really actually understand the true power that we have
in terms of growing businesses or, you know,
being an ambassador or marketing something.
So I feel like, A, your body is definitely key foremost,
obviously to play the game, but also just your brand itself.
Like, if you're doing everything right,
obviously it opens a lot of doors, don't you reckon?
I think you're a little bit ahead of the time where, like,
to me, you're, like, one of the first actual professional
athletes and how you treated your body from, like, Monday to Friday.
Like, we'd all go eat out at cafes and, like, you look at NRL teams now
and they're all ripped, like, from front row all the way back to fullback.
But you were, like, ripped.
You cared about preparation.
You cared about stretching.
And you seemed to care about body.
Where did that come from?
Because it wasn't around us.
I don't know.
I think it's just the way I was brought up.
Like, I didn't really get much looking, like, coming up as a junior.
So I felt like I had to work hard for everything, like, coming up as a kid.
So I wanted to kind of, you know,
you talk about the one percenters, right?
Like, you do everything you possibly can
to give yourself the best possible advantage.
So all that comes into play, like, what I ate, stretching,
you know, hanging out with the right crowd, like, obviously, put that all together.
You got a massive, you know, massive benefit from it.
So for me, I tried being as much of a professional as I can be.
Obviously, I did kind of sway from time
to time when I got a bit ahead of myself. I'm not going to lie.
I wasn't perfect.
You need to enjoy yourself.
Yeah, you need to enjoy yourself.
That's my motto.
I'm not going to say that.
That's Lassie's motto.
It's all about balance.
It's all about balance. All about balance.
Like, balance is very hard to come
by. Like, I struggle with it from time to time.
And I'm currently struggling with it now.
Like, obviously, adjusting with playing
footy, having a business and obviously doing a few things on the side.
So family as well.
But even like, like doing like the modelling shots and like at the time,
we would pay you out because we're jealous, you know what I mean?
More ripped than you are, but back then I wasn't.
Like, even now, like the boys, even I watch them and they do like,
Nico, he done his modelling gig and he was doing all stuff.
But he pays himself out straight away.
And like back in the day,
that
wouldn't be seen as cool.
And I still feel like that sticker was still in the locker room.
You know what I mean?
I definitely feel like that.
I feel like it's just like that fear of getting picked on by the boys.
Like, it's definitely in there.
I got picked on all the time. I didn't care.
You know, I was used to it.
I had thick skin, especially hanging out with this bloke and being my roomie.
Sitting in a car for two hours every day.
Chewing my ear off.
Um, yeah, I was just trying to think.
Oh, I had this random thought.
Remember when you guys tried to fight me in the nightclub?
When? When I made a joke about your eye?
Yeah, me. Was that a trademark?
I don't know.
It was me.
I don't know if the fight was a blop.
Flamingos, yeah.
Yeah, he threw the toys out of the car.
Who was this?
I come up to you, I say, hey, Saucy, how are you?
And you just go, I'm not talking to you.
Oh yeah, because you said something on Twitter.
No, you said something on Twitter and you were holding on to it.
I don't remember.
I've got Josh.
Can you remind me? Can we bring the tweet out?
Let's bring the tweet out.
Something on Twitter.
Do you know what it was, bro?
Like someone asked why Saucy's out.
And I didn't know the extent of your actual injury.
You know, when you got
that knee in the face, I go, oh, he's got a black eye.
He's got six weeks for a black eye.
So you storm off and then lets it come storming behind me.
Grabs my shoulder, like rips me.
He goes, if Saucy ain't talking to you, I'm not talking to you.
That is GST.
Corey was there.
I think I even had a YKTR shirt on too.
I'll take this logo off.
I think Corey did tell me that.
Because then there was another time at Trademark, remember Jamal tried to fight you?
That was Flamingos.
Flamingos, isn't that Flamingos?
Yeah, the new Flamingos.
Great, nice, you know, Flamingos.
I think that's where we then ended up back at Betland.
Tell them the story about that.
I can't really remember.
So we had Mad Monday.
2014 Mad Monday.
It came for like two hours and it just disappeared.
Like full smoke bomb and everything.
Who, Latsy or?
Nah, nah, Jamal.
Please, always.
I was trying to call him, no answer.
A few of the boys were trying to call him, whatever.
So we all decided to go to the cross.
Anyway, we get to the Flamingos and there was like a massive line of me and Latsy.
We just, you know, just in the line, just minding our own business.
And then we just see Jamal just walk past the line and go back up the stairs.
And Latsy's absolutely throwing daggers in his back.
Look at how arrogant he is.
Not hanging out with the boys, hanging out with his own mates.
It's Mad Monday. Who does he think he is?
Calm down, bro, that's all good.
Anyway, we end up going into the club and then he's like, make sure you don't talk to Jamal.
If he comes up to us, don't talk to him, OK?
We're like, yeah, yeah, sweet.
Sounds like Latsy.
Jamal comes up to us, taps us on the shoulder.
We just both look to each other.
We just both walk off.
Anyway, Jamal must have got offended by it.
And then he picked
on my mate, happened to be there.
That's how it happened.
Yeah, he picked on our arm there. Do you remember that?
I can't remember. I just remember the blow up upstairs.
I don't remember being in the line.
I thought you had pool there and we went to the front.
Oh, mate. Anyway, it was a bit of a push and shove.
And then Jamal got kicked out.
Then me and Latsy hanging off the balcony.
Jamal, where you going, bro? Come back, come back.
And then we rang him the next day and he's like, what happened last night?
It was all normal, it was all normal.
Anyway, hope you're well, Jamal. Haven't seen you in a while.
Good times, good times.
So we'll talk about transitioning.
And I
remember the exact moment, like I used to always say I was over
football, but the exact moment I can remember as clear as day where I'm like,
I'm done. And that was when I got injured again out at Manly.
And I was like, I'm just over football.
What year was that?
Sixteen, maybe.
I just felt, for me, I felt stuck in football.
I felt trapped.
Yeah, I hated it. I hated it.
What part about it? Just the routine, the schedule and the demand.
I just felt like it was restricting, like you're told what to do,
where to be,
what to wear, how to play, and then you throw in a stack of injuries.
That goes either way.
But people love that.
People love having given a schedule and having been told.
That's probably a big challenge when you do retire.
And I was going to swing around to that.
It's like always wanted freedom to do what I want and when I wanted.
And then I found myself once I left football, I had that freedom.
But I felt stuck again because I had nothing to work towards.
And I ended up structuring my day around that.
But to sort of throw it back, when was the moment you probably realized that you
were done or had enough?
So 2019.
I'm on another one year deal, believe it or not.
I sort of got wind early in the year that Dragons were keen to get me sort of into
an off field role doing like partnerships and like ambassador stuff.
I'd been slowly doing the mortgage broken stuff.
So I remember going and speaking to the club and they sort of said at that point
they didn't have anything for me, but there may be like something later
in the year and I was just like, look, I've got an opportunity to get this
steady income from the Dragon stuff and then, you know, build my mortgage broken.
So I sort of just made the call.
And so I could potentially try to hang on for another year.
But the year after was covered.
Like it ended up being a good time to retire footy wise.
And they made the game faster,
which I wasn't suited to because they made everything quicker at the Rucks.
So it ended up being a perfect time for me to go out.
In saying that, like I'm actually still playing bush footy at the moment.
And I like I love that and being able to
give back to the bush and play with so many good mates down there.
But the time in terms of the NRL and that day to day grind, obviously I loved every
day being around the boys and, you know,
bringing that energy to the locker room, but that that constant
up and down, you know, form team wasn't going that well.
Never miss that. Yeah.
Have you any dark days since you left football?
Yeah. So like to be fully transparent, like so I retired.
I was flying like I had a stock portfolio,
which I probably attach my identity too much to and thought I was a man
straight into work and I found that a challenge originally.
Like it was hard.
And
January 2020, my mate who was doing the
broken, maybe he goes on getting out of broken.
So that's boom, curveball, head nearly falls off.
Then about a month later, COVID hits and the stock portfolio goes through the roof.
But that was like seven figures to be fully transparent.
Harmon
and like, you know, from always, oh, it's going mad on the man, whatever.
And the next thing I'm homeschooling my son, my son at home.
And, you know, that first year was rough.
But at the same time, like I still was sweet, whatever.
But I just had all these little challenges in that first year, which threw me.
And it's now changed first my relationship with money.
Like, I don't really because, you know, like I used to be a tight ass and
one of the greats, one of the greats, but now like I'm like, whatever, like it is
what it is, I prefer to have a good time and I've got my money everywhere now.
Not that I have a great deal, but it's I don't care.
Like it is what it is.
So that part one, that was a great lesson for me.
And to keep that shit to myself.
And then then obviously relationship breakdown, me and my ex split up.
So that was a challenge.
But so, yeah, then first couple of years were a bit of a roller coaster coming out
of footy, but the whole time I've been slowly building,
building like all these different things.
So, you know, now
probably the last.
Ten months, 11 months, everything just started to, you know, build up, build up,
build up and like I'm flying at the moment, touch wood like I'm I've finally found my
feet and it's, you know, my fourth year.
I've tried. So it has taken time to get to this point.
And, you know, a few challenges thrown in there along the way.
But like you talk about injury, getting dropped, all that shit that happens,
that adversity that I face now makes me appreciate everything now and, you know,
just appreciate every day because there's going to be curveball comes at some point.
So just have to get the arms out, ready to take it on.
But you just appreciate also when you're
playing rugby league and having a professional contract, you know,
you appreciate not having those external forces have that massive influence on me.
So, you know,
day by day, yeah, training might be tough some some days, you know, maybe you get
dropped here and there, whatever, whatever that might be.
But you're still living the dream.
You don't really actually realise how good
you actually got it and being involved in that.
I'm at this point now and I said this to you at the airport because me and I ended
up on the same flight the other day and I'm just like, man, I fucking love my life
now more than when I played footy like it's unreal.
Like in my day, I wake up quarter to five and it's just chaos all day.
But like it's I'm getting better at the organised chaos.
And but I fucking love it.
Oh, I should.
And if some if you could right now drop five years off your life and there's
a three hundred dollar contract in front of you for a thousand dollar contract
for the next two years, would you go back in and lose everything?
I've built to this point.
Yeah, no, no, no way.
I don't know, to be honest, no way.
Like I said, I've just gone through three
years of roller coaster of different things that I face like professionally,
personally, and I'm now humming like that'd be stupid.
Yeah, no chance.
And that's like I said, money is not
where it's at for me now, like it's about like I'm involved in business.
I'm building business with my mate.
This is my term. This is like about 10, 20 years.
100 percent. I'm going to be way more successful after footy.
That's my goal.
I always think that. Yeah, I already am.
Yeah, yeah.
I've got a good mindset to have.
Yeah, about that.
Like, you know, life after footy is actually going to be bigger and better.
100 percent.
A lot of people say they're like they're
like enjoy football now is the best time of your life.
And it is. It is great.
There's so much you got to make the most of it.
You got to make the most of it. Oh, for sure.
For sure. Yeah, I think because we were battlers.
And
my last five years, I fucking loved every day.
Like because I was like, this could be my last year.
I'm bouncing the train and there's blokes on 800.
They're fucking picking up seeds.
And I'm like, come on, boys.
We just lost. Get around each other.
Like, it's all good.
Like, we're back on on this week.
Like, for example, Devita just retired.
Yeah.
Like, you know, I had that expectation on being that on that money.
Like that must have had a.
Oh, look, I don't want to be conspiracy theorist.
I reckon he'll turn up somewhere.
You reckon you're going to fight him?
Yeah, no way.
Do you reckon like a year boxing and sort of roll back into.
He'll end up back.
He's too young, mate.
Too talented.
I agree.
But they wouldn't let him fight.
So there's got to be more to that story without knowing the insides
and what's going on there.
Yeah, because I look at that situation and like, oh, like, I understand it.
I remember when Sonny Bill left 2008.
I like to me, that was like someone had died.
Yeah, that was crazy.
Oh, don't forget that.
He walking for the airport.
Yeah, back back on, back down, backwards, head on.
I was like, fuck, I can't believe so.
How old would he been then?
He was young, too.
He's like 22, 2008.
I think he's 85, baby.
So how old are you in 90 and 2008?
Maybe like 21.
Yeah, well, far out.
It's pretty 23, 23, 22, 23.
Yeah, that because he won the comp when he was 19 in 2003.
And he had the world.
Oh, 2004.
Panthers were three. Yeah.
Yeah. Yeah.
It's been 21, 22 crazy decision to make.
Had the world at his feet and just essentially just dropped it all
and just took a different path.
He's in Sonny Bill's camp, isn't he, Tevita?
Yes.
All right.
Conspiracy theorist. There we go.
Yeah, smart one.
It's pretty interesting one.
So you're sort of in like your transition.
Playing semi football now.
Why do you want to still play semi football?
And two, what's the transition been like?
Yeah.
So again, when I kind of
yeah, after last season, having a contract,
I still feel like I wasn't fulfilled.
I feel like I didn't want my journey to end.
Sorry.
What would make you feel fulfilled through football?
Because you basically, besides the ring, it's a very good question, man.
Like, I just feel like my journey.
I know everyone doesn't get the fairytale finish,
but I feel like I didn't really get the opportunity
to kind of leave on my own terms.
And I know that doesn't happen to a lot of rugby league players.
I don't know.
I just feel like last season, man, I just
it wasn't a season that I would like to remember
and be my last, my last year in rugby league,
like something I always dreamt of doing, you know what I mean?
So for me, I feel like just having one more crack, that'll be awesome.
But again, like if it comes to it and I have to retire,
then I'm OK with that.
Like, I'm not scared of evolving.
Like, again, I'm putting all the pieces in the right areas right now.
Like Latsi's saying, you're just building, building, building that.
So brick by brick, I'm trying to kind of,
you know, look, look after myself for life after footy,
which hasn't been easy because I've got thrown
a couple of curveballs early this year.
So what's some of those curveballs you've thrown?
So, yeah, after obviously October is your last pay slip,
you know, coming from the club.
So I had the opportunity to kind of go to the World Cup
and I wanted to kind of reinvigorate my career
and I want to kind of show everyone that I still had it.
And obviously going over the World Cup, you're not really getting paid money.
So I was actually, you know, I was more of an expense,
but an opportunity to kind of represent my culture,
but also to kind of, you know, build my kind of career back up again.
I thought it was a pretty good campaign.
You know, me and the boys, we got to the quarterfinal.
I thought I played pretty decent.
And I don't know, I kind of always thought that everything works out,
everything will work out, everything will work out.
I was kind of having that mentality coming through.
And then, you know, I'm coming in, I'm in January.
I've been living off my savings, not a dollar coming in.
And I was like, what's going on here?
And then I got a curveball, like I ended up having a bad business decision.
Like I had a bad business fallout, which happens.
And that was like a massive dark cloud, dark cloud over my head.
And I was just, it was like one thing after another.
It was just a snowball effect.
Obviously having no club, no income coming in, you know,
we got bills, mortgages, got a family to look after.
And then, you know, having a bad kind of business fallout,
that really hurt because that business that I was involved in,
that was always going to be my transition away from football.
So it wasn't like I wasn't trying to think about what life after footy
was going to look like.
So I kind of put all my eggs in one basket, which fell through.
And I was like, wow, like I kind of almost hit rock bottom.
And then after that, I had some good news, but I couldn't actually
celebrate the good news because I had all that stuff going on in the background.
My wife felt pregnant.
So
again, it's great news, the biggest blessing from God.
But it's another kind of pressure.
Yeah.
So I've got these three things happening at once,
and I'm trying to figure out what to do with myself.
And again, like you don't understand like how good you actually have it until,
you know, it's taken away.
So that's what I kind of really experienced.
And now, like you're saying, it takes time to kind of build yourself back up again.
And I've been doing that this year and now I'm in a good place.
Found balance.
I found something that I'm passionate about.
You know, I'm doing my own thing.
I've got my own business, ClickBuilt, which is awesome renovation.
Business and my background is always building.
So it's kind of something easy.
I stepped into being Lebanese as well.
Just another Lebanese builder.
But if we go the backstreet to training,
like through Wiley Park and that, because I built that when I was in practice.
But can I also say, can I also say, like, if it wasn't for my mate here,
I probably wouldn't be doing what I'm doing now.
Like, he actually threw me a good short ball and he put me in touch with...
That's what 40 Network does, knock some boys out.
He put me in touch with another, a good mate of his, a mutual friend,
and kind of shared the same interests.
And now we're business partners.
And I've got him to thank, like, you know, I'm grateful for him.
Like, you know what I mean?
Like, that's what we're best mates.
Like, we do, we do heaps for each other.
And that's why, that's why he keeps reminding me every single day.
Like, when he got his home loan through another mortgage broker.
Oh, years ago.
Did he?
There's a back story to that.
There's a back story to that.
We don't have to go into it, mate.
Hey, I'll leave that to you.
I want to hear it, I want to hear it, I want to hear it.
I hold on to things.
This guy doesn't, this guy just doesn't work.
I just bring it up as a joke because I'm a joke.
It can't be just a joke because he's brought it up 10 times.
Shout out mortgage brokers.
But yeah, man, I'm, I'm, and then I've just got a gig at Newtown.
Like, that come out of the blue.
So I talk about ego, like that kind of hurt, hurt my ego at the start
because I was like, how did I go from playing in a row regularly
and, you know, achieving what I achieved to all of a sudden
just playing reserve grade.
And again, I just go, you know what, stuff this, I'm putting my ego aside.
I'm going to, it's, I'm doing what I love.
You know what I mean?
I play for a great club like Newtown.
Like, yeah, they're a reserve grade club,
but they're
a great club.
They're great people.
It's a great club and I'm having fun.
So while I'm doing all the other things in the background,
it's, it's paying itself off.
So you put your experience through rugby league
and you use the adversity through there, through injuries,
through getting dropped, through losing GF, stuff like that.
How much more or less did that business one hurt?
Because it was your first one.
Killed me.
Did it?
Yeah, I get that.
That makes sense to me.
It broke me, man.
Just because like, I put pretty much a lot of time and effort in.
He was pumping it on his days off and
putting time in it and it was the face of the business.
Like you would know yourself, like business.
It's like your second baby.
It's like a baby.
It's your baby.
You know what I mean?
And I really saw this as my future.
And when it kind of got taken away from me,
it didn't end up happening to be that way.
It was like, I didn't see it coming.
I didn't.
And part of it's my fault.
I was a bit negligent.
Again, like we talk about footy was my main priority
and the business was like in the background, just, just there.
Like I was just, whenever I had time, I would just, you know, dibble dabble,
tip my toe in the water, whatever that might be.
But again, like I just, I needed to be more proactive.
That's my, that's, I dropped the ball there.
Let's see, what are you doing now?
You said your fingers in a few different pies.
So still mortgage broken, which I went into when I retired.
So like I'm a fully fledged broker now as a credit,
like I've got a credit rep under Oxygen Home Loans, still employed at the Dragons,
which I still love and have that connection to the rugby league club.
Still love that football club.
Obviously I was pretty well traveled, but
I think I played three years in total at Dragons,
four at Penrith.
So they're, they're sort of my two favorite clubs, but I love them.
Which one would you pick better?
Dragons.
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Even though they hurt me with like their performances,
but the club's been really good to me post footy as well.
You know, through, supported me through that COVID time
in terms of that consistent income when the broken hit, hit the shitters.
So what do you, what do you do there?
Just do like the corporate things?
Yeah, yeah.
So like I'm partnerships manager.
So I have, you know, say 15 hospitality sort of partners
who like a few of them become like me good mates and then
like just do promos.
And then
ambassadors go away with like the sponsors for an origin trip,
go to Mudgee, like it's good fun, MC at home games.
So doing them too.
So they've been my two main ones.
I'm doing something with the NRL, which is about the change,
which I want to touch on after this.
I was doing like transition mentoring.
So I have like 20 boys in that one to five years retired.
But that, that role will be made null and void soon,
which I'll get to that.
Tommy Simon's my man.
Yeah.
But and then I've got LCR Sports, which I mentioned before.
So I'm in that with Luke Lewis, an accountant
and a financial planner.
So that's just helping athletes build wealth.
You know, first year player, you know, we've got boys who are retired.
We've got soccer players, jockeys, female sports players.
So it's a space, you know, I mentioned about something bad
that happened to me financially.
And I made some other bad decisions when I was playing footy
in terms of how I invested.
So sort of just to take that away so boys can focus on, you know, their sport.
Did you ever have someone like holding you?
Not necessarily holding your hand, but advising you on where to put your money?
Nah.
You know what I mean?
What to do with your brand?
I had Nudo, Nudo helped me.
Yeah, Nudo was good.
He just goes, bro, put your money here.
And I was like, yeah, and that's kind of what I've always done.
So that's essentially what we're doing now, helping the boys.
So it's like index funds or.
Yeah, index funds, like the fund manager.
We do property development.
So I've just gone into one of them myself, which is they're doing the backpackers
on the Goldies.
So I have to keep flying up to check on that, making sure it's getting built.
That's a great business trip.
Yeah, business trip.
Like after the weekend, I don't mind it.
What did you get up to?
On a business trip.
What did you get up to on the business trip?
I got a flat stick, mate.
And then my other two.
So Unite, which is like a merchant apparel business.
So I have that with Louie, Luke Lewis and my mate Jaden Walker.
So doing all sportswear off field for footy,
but we do on field for soccer or like pretty well any sort of,
you know, apparel.
And then we're sort of planning to do a sportswear brand as well.
Athletic Leisure, which is in the process now of getting designed.
And then we've got another side of that, which is Unico,
which is like a marketing agency.
So you're like out stretching yourself for all that.
I was just about to ask the exact same question.
Are you doing too much?
My day's chaos, yeah.
Like I'm working from like 4.
Well, 4.45.
I do morning routine as well.
I could do that every day for about 45 minutes where I meditate,
do gratitude and journal.
Look at like, read like quotes and stuff and like manifest.
I do a few weird things.
Yeah.
And then I work from.
That's not weird.
Yeah, sorry.
No, but like my headspace is like unbelievable at the moment.
And I bring it back to that.
Just building good habits.
But then from pretty well, once I finish that, I'm chaos.
Like if I've got the kids, because I have them every second week,
I'll work for two hours, get kids ready for school.
I've got to train every day.
So I go to the gym and then it's just meetings, meeting, meeting.
Then I'll jump back online at night if I have,
because I'm punching out loans and that as well.
And that's still my main source of income.
Question.
So for NRL players listening to this right now,
how would you advise them financially?
Obviously, you don't have to go into detail,
but what's a like, what's some good basic frameworks that they need to do?
Yeah, because people were telling us just save now, save now.
And back in the day, I was like, oh,
if you get a house cleared up,
the time you finish football, you're in a great position.
That's a dream, you know, paying off a house, you know, in your footy career.
But you've always spoken about it like property isn't the be all end all.
And for guys who might not have a house deposit,
they could put 30K into one, for example, what we do,
manage funds and add $1,000 a month and then you're slowly building it.
You know, you're putting 10 to 15% on that a year, depending on what you're doing.
Pull a bit out, put in one of the property developments
that gives you a return in two years.
So go to professionals and LCI sports is available.
But
if not us, there's plenty of people out there who can help you.
But then if you are going to go into property and I got stitched up
with a bad property, I mean, like my ex-NAT board,
he was a con artist, he was pretty well a con artist.
But I've got buyer's agents who I work with now, I've been a broker
and I've tipped a few of the footy boys into it.
Like some of the capital growth they've had in two years is unbelievable.
So perfect example, like going to professionals
by making sure you do your homework about that person.
You know what I mean?
Go to someone you trust.
Like, man, I'm here, like I now know that industry as well.
But
obviously I've got a vested interest in the financial one.
But, mate, I wouldn't put boys in with people I don't trust.
And there's so many snakes and sharks in the world,
which I found out the fucking hard way, who want to take your money.
And we've got a pretty good reference point in like Elijah Taylor.
Yeah. Oh, man.
Crazy man.
That's sad.
That is so that's one of the saddest stories I've ever read, honestly.
Like, if anyone knows E.T.
Remember that dude bro?
I do mate, I don't know who he is.
Was he like manager or advisor?
Like what was he?
I don't know.
But he come into the Warriors pretty early on and he's doing like mindset shit.
But he come into training a couple of times for Penrith because I remember him.
Oh, did he come to Penrith?
No, not to do stuff with us.
Just like he like, you know, the front door that we used to walk through the gym.
He used to walk through there and sort of hang around that little siding.
Yeah, I remember him seeing him there.
Because he's like, you know, Elijah, he's a he would have just trusted him implicitly too.
He's a very tough guy.
That's that's player managers are that for rugby league players like it's
a sketchy position like because you're putting your full trust in that amount of
I don't show me and you have the same manager brah.
I went to sack him and signed a five-year contract with him.
I remember telling Nat, I go, Nat, I'm going to sack him.
It's just before I went to sign the Warriors card.
I don't give a fuck.
I'm done with him.
When you're after him.
How'd you go?
Fucking signed five more years.
It's just guilt tripped me into signing another contract.
And I was like 22 tail between the legs.
Do you know what he tried to get me with one time was like, I just re-signed with Penrith was going away.
Do you know what he tried to get me with one time was like, I just re-signed with Penrith was going away.
Do you know what he tried to get me with one time was like, I just re-signed with Penrith was going away.
I signed it and he tried to swoop me in with the little one on the side.
He goes, you had to sign this one while you're at it too.
And I was like, what's that?
He goes, oh, it's like my contract.
I was like, bro, at the same time.
That's how you got me.
I signed my Warriors contract.
But I was like, I'm going to sack him.
I feel like that old order of management is like definitely changing.
It is definitely changing.
How would you change it?
I think you guys just got to be more proactive.
I feel like the current managers, I feel like they just outstretched themselves.
I feel like their portfolio, they got like 50 to 100 players and you can't put your time and effort into that.
It's top 10% because that's where the income is coming from.
89% of their income comes from the top 10% of players.
You're not going to give Jeremy Latimer more time at the bottom end of the scale getting you five grand a year when Josh Haddock-Harr is getting you a hundred grand a year.
I think most of us are just leading players on the string, you know what I mean?
Just giving them false hope and just keeping them there, keeping them there.
And then out of nowhere, something might just happen and you just hope for the best.
I'll swim out of this with Artie quite a bit.
But I reckon the way the model is going to work soon is like, like say Cheese, for example.
He's like got to go.
Clothing deal with us.
But like say he comes to negotiate a new contract.
Get a business person that you trust.
I agree.
And then contract a contract lawyer and like, hey, this is going to cost six hours.
This is going to be six hours.
Your fee is $500 an hour.
Here's $3,000.
Help me so I don't get fucked over.
And then take me with them.
There's better business people than me.
But you know what I mean?
That should be the model.
100%.
Imagine being under a million dollars and giving someone $50,000 to do fuck all.
I agree.
And then there's marketing agencies and stuff out there.
Like you say yourself or like what I'm involved in.
We can source third party deals for the top.
It's only the top 10% of players who are going to get marketing deals anyway.
Jeremy Lattimore is not going to get sponsored by anything.
So it's only that top 10% who are going to get the deals right.
That's spot on.
And I reckon we will see that transition away from player managers.
Because what you said is getting that person in to negotiate a one-off deal.
I can.
We help tip someone I know involved in one of our business too.
An accountant who does that sort of stuff.
Who negotiated, took a $10,000 fee for one-off instead of taking $30,000.
You need to do absolutely nothing.
That's a good business model coming up.
So someone wants to get in to player management.
Fuck, I need another business.
Fuck.
Your legs have already been shaking.
But I started saying that.
You're fucking going all over the shop.
But like fuck.
If any of our players are listening to this, that's the way to do it.
Get rid of your management.
Anything is when you're like a little bit.
I think nationalities are really important.
Like you see a lot of the Islander boys.
Totally.
Who are too scared to talk to Ivan.
Because Ivan's not giving you like clear answers.
Yeah.
Talking in riddles.
Yeah.
And then.
Bro, am I playing this week, mate?
I'm starting to feel you're well on the weekend.
Mate, that's the reserve grade coach.
Bro, why are you telling me that on Tuesday?
It's fucking Saturday.
It's game day.
Oh, mate.
Go talk to Breno.
Sorry.
I was going to touch back on.
Because we're talking about transition.
And I wanted to go into this.
And I know they've just negotiated the most recent CBA deal.
And I think, you know, they're handing over the keys to the RLPA.
And.
Shout out Nudo.
Hey, Nudo.
Tommy Simon.
Jamie Drew.
A couple of the great men of rugby league.
But it's a space.
Obviously, I've mentioned, you know, I've had my struggles.
He has.
I don't think there's many people out there that don't struggle with the fact that you
go from doing something you love with 30 of your mates to, you know, trying to build this
whole new identity in life.
Which you shouldn't attach your identity to being a rugby league player.
But a lot of boys do.
Agree.
Agree.
So.
You know, they're really going to go hard in that space.
Which I think is fucking awesome.
Because.
How are they going to go hard?
Like, what's changing?
I think, you know, well, I think in terms of the medical stuff.
Like, I think that was only one year you could get your surgery.
So, that now may be extended into years two and three.
So, you know.
Fucking.
You're getting some done three years after.
Because you might have an issue.
And you flag it.
But then two years after.
You're like, fuck.
This is really fucked.
And you've got to go back.
Mate, it's on you.
It was only 12 months you had it.
So.
And obviously, that's.
These are.
From my understanding.
Why this CVA took so long.
Is because.
These.
This little shit.
In terms of transition and well-being.
Which isn't little stuff.
Because.
You know.
We've lost blokes in the last five, ten years.
Who have necked their self after.
You know.
Transition away from rugby league.
Struggle with different things.
So, it's such an important space.
To help athletes rebuild their new life and career.
And.
But it's up to the boys to then make the most of that.
And.
First through education.
Like, doing things when they're playing footy.
But also then.
Actually transitioning out the workforce.
And getting after it.
Yeah.
How much do you reckon the game's evolved?
Like, I look at young players now.
Crazy.
It's crazy.
Like.
We get eight weeks off back in a day.
Fuck.
And see you later.
I'll see you November 1st.
Haven't done a lick of training.
Mm.
These guys are like.
Doing training.
They might go to Bali for like.
Four or five days.
And train twice over there.
But it was also an old man's game.
Like.
Now it's just a young man's game.
Mm.
Like.
It's just the average age in NRL.
Like.
It's just crazy.
Like.
You look at Penrith for a perfect example.
Like.
It'd be crazy.
Yeah.
Like.
Yowie's one now.
And he's like.
Yeah.
He's doing.
He's been in the NRL for 15 years.
He's just hit 28.
He looks very weathered.
Big Yowie.
He's putting his head where the sun don't shine.
Yeah.
100%.
But.
Yeah.
It's definitely changed heaps, man.
What were you going to say?
No.
I was just saying.
It's just changed heaps in terms of like.
Just the age demographic and stuff.
In NRL.
Like.
I feel like.
They're very valuing.
Like.
The player.
The younger they are.
The more upside and value they have.
But like.
In the NRL.
But.
You know.
Global sports.
Like.
You look at the guys that have done everything.
Like.
They're the most well respected.
And it's the reason why they were respected.
I feel like.
They've done their trade.
They've applied it.
And.
You got the unicorn.
Lebron James.
Oh.
Far out.
39.
Still dominating the NBA.
Even like.
You know.
Guys like.
You know.
Kobe Bryant.
Like.
For example.
He played what?
Until he was 40 years old.
Or something like that.
Cam Smith.
He barely misses games.
Touch wood.
Yeah.
I like.
I like.
A lot of the younger boys.
Because obviously.
The position I'm in.
They come in and ask questions.
And like.
Say.
Like.
One of the older boys.
And.
You know.
Like.
We all know him.
But like.
He was asking me questions.
But he felt uncomfortable asking me questions.
Shouldn't be that way man.
And he prefaced the questions.
Like.
Hey bro.
I look up to what you do.
But I don't want to suck your dick here.
Like.
Just.
I was like.
I went to this.
This mentor yesterday.
And.
You know.
I asked him.
I want to kind of pick someone's brain.
And.
I told him.
I go.
Oh no.
Don't worry about it.
Like.
I just flipped it.
I don't want to be an ass licker or anything.
Just don't worry.
Don't call him.
I don't want to talk to him.
He's like.
Why not?
I'm like.
Oh.
I just don't want to.
Don't want to suck up.
I don't want to hassle him.
He was.
What do you mean?
You just want to ask him a question.
Like.
What's the big deal?
Like.
You know what I mean?
Like.
You know what I mean?
Just.
Just throw yourself in the deep.
Just.
Just go for it.
Like.
What do you got to lose?
A dent to your ego.
Yeah.
You know what I mean?
Like.
I was going to say no.
Go on.
Go on.
Go on lads.
Go on lads.
No.
I was just thinking about throwing.
Chat out on Instagram.
And you get the scene.
No reply.
See my bro.
I'll keep moving forward.
100%.
You know what I mean?
If it's meant to be.
It's meant to be.
I'll throw it back to sort of the locker room.
Where you were doing like modeling shots.
And all the boys were taking you out.
And I remember being at the RLPA dinner.
I think it was the start of this year.
And Dan Carter rocked up.
So like.
Specimen.
The goat.
Got his boots in the back there.
I can see that.
Hey.
Shout out to him.
But I remember being in that environment.
And he goes.
Oh.
Any questions?
And none of the boys were asking questions.
Because they're overawed.
Yeah.
And it's like.
They're scared to like.
Put themselves out there.
So I was like.
Fuck him either Mike.
I'll be asking heaps of questions.
Yeah.
We can get an insight into his mentality.
And what made him tick.
Every single day.
And even Nicco Hines right.
Like.
I didn't realize.
But he's like.
On game day.
He goes down to the park on game day.
And does these routines.
And I heard he's the ultimate professional.
And these are things I didn't know.
Like obviously.
You see a bloke playing.
Like.
He goes good.
But.
There's these boys here.
At the top of their game.
Who are doing all this extra shit.
That no one.
Realizes they're doing.
Like timing to the body.
And.
Mate.
No.
Mate.
He was.
Out on the field.
I was already in the car
heading home
when he was still
doing his first goal kick
straight into group chat
hey boys what's going on
any copies given him out
mate but yeah
he was unbelievable
and like you know
like and you as well
as anyone
because you were out there
longer like why he's
at the top of his game
because he's just grafted
he could go on
and coach an NRL team
tomorrow
I reckon too
easy
he's so smart
I'm interviewing him
next week
coming down to Rome
on here
oh how good
yeah yeah
but gotta go out there
we've got the couch
warm for the boys
oh yeah
I'm in our
Penriths and Tuff
left
have you not
nah
probably since
I lived there for a little
bit when I transitioned
out
changed so much
bro
so much
it does look different
it's cool though
for the better
like it's getting
better and better
and because when
they do the new
airport
I feel like that
airport's been coming
for like 20 years
big geefs holding
all the land out there
but I actually
can't believe I lived
there for like 11 months
I couldn't handle it
did you live out there
I'm gonna tell you
he sent me that
he goes
thinking of going
to England
I go bro
you couldn't last
like 12
months in Penrith
you're not gonna last
the year
we'll put a Penrith
I was in Leno
I was like
pretty much
I was down the road
from my
Penrith
oh mate
I just
I could have
I could have done it
but
go tell us
go
give us the rundown
don't worry
it's all good
I don't want to look like
so what are you
actually doing now
like what's
obviously
Lassie just spent
the last 45 minutes
telling us about
his pies
I don't think
I could get a word
here to be honest
again like
yeah playing
footy for Newtown
I'm doing that
what's the business
part of it though
like my business
click build
so it's a renovation
business
we tailored to
like pre-sale
properties
like people wanted
to prepare their
investment
and put it on the
market to
you know
earn maximum value
so you get like
furniture and stuff
like that
everything from
like man
like renovating
the house
like flipping
my home
the best thing
about it
I don't
kind of like
want to over
capitalize
and put a hole
in their wallet
we also got an
option where
I've partnered
with a financier
where we can
defer the whole
renovation
and then we get
us paid on settlement
so it's
it helps the
owners heaps
we'll also do
rental
like so for
investors wanting
to kind of
get more rental
income
which is
the market
at the moment
rental is
absolutely
booming
you would know
as well
and so going
there
fully refurbished
and also commercial
do a massive
shop fit outs
new developments
pretty much everything
I'm just saturating
the market when it
comes to construction
I'm doing as much
as I can
and it's been
pretty cool
it's been something
that's really
fulfilling my cup
feeling my cup up
and do a bit of
media work for
nrl.com
me Rene Gardner
catch up with
her every Wednesday
preview and
review games
and so I'm
kind of
dabbling with
that and I'm
also like just
doing a bit of
PT work
I think that's
the biggest thing
like when you
kind of go away
from rugby league
like the biggest
strength we have
is we're always
training right
so I feel like
that's the easiest
kind of transition
I've noticed
I was contemplating
I was going to
open up a gym
or not but I
just felt like
it wasn't the
right time to
do it and
I just came
out of a
you know
kind of big
business venture
I kind of
now I'm
starting with
click build
I just wanted
to kind of
build that
and yeah
it's been
pretty good
I'll ask you
the first question
I'll ask you
the second question
because they're
different
what's the
biggest lessons
that you've
learned from
football that
have helped
you translate
into business
that's a
good question
man
I know you
still knew
when so
what's the
most obvious
ones for you
just to kind
of embrace
the hard times
they're not
going to last
forever but
there's so many
valuable lessons
that you can
kind of get
out of it
when you're
in that kind
of tough
position like
all you see
is kind of
the negative
and you know
if that's
been
interesting
injured
you're kind
of asking
the universe
what does
have to
happen to
me
just get
out of
that kind
of mindset
and think
about what's
next
just live
in the
moment
it is
what it
is
you take
the good
and you
take the
bad
and I
feel like
hardship
definitely
shapes you
to the
person you
are
if you
don't
experience
those
hardship
times
you're
not
going to
grow
as a
person
if life
is just
so easy
you're
not
going to
really
learn on
the run
and be
independent
I guess
I feel
like
just embrace
it and
get all
the learnings
out of
it
I'll ask
you the
opposite
question
what's
some
things
from
football
that you've
seen in
sports
that haven't
transferred
over to
business
wow
good
question
do you
want to
hear my
one
first
one
in
sports
for one
person
to win
someone
else
has to
lose
and I
used to
feel like
that in
business
I feel
like
let me
hold all
the secrets
here
if I
win
you have
to lose
but
I feel
like in
business
everyone
can win
you can
win
I can
win
there's a
lot of
pie to
be shared
there is
yeah
and that's
how I
see it
and the
stuff that
sort of
happened
with
scope
earlier
in
the
year
like
to
me
I was
like
fine
take
that
pie
I can
just
create
some
more
ones
and that's
the thing
that kind
of frustrated
me
someone's
got to
win
someone's
got to
lose
for a
spot
to win
the game
yeah
to win
a business
deal
yeah
and like
see
like
I know
you
can
get
loaded
we all
can get
loaded
and do
fun
stuff
but
that was
one that
sort of
took me
a while
to really
figure
out
that's
a good
one
yeah
I don't
know
like
trying
to
think
that
that's
like
hearing
you
say
that
like
that
makes
sense
I was
going
to
ask
it
the
other
way
around
but
it would
have
been
a bit
harder
for
sure
man
like
and
because
there is
so many
synergies
when you
do
transfer
across
yeah
it's
just
super
entitled
yeah
but
like
yeah
that was
kind
of
the
one
someone
asked
me
that
question
and
yeah
I never
thought
about
that
because
I think
of all
the
other
things
yeah
but
no
I don't
know
that's
like
in a
team
you
can
rely
on
your
teammates
to
help
you
out
but
once
you
step
out
of
that
environment
the
only
person
you
can
rely
on
is
yourself
man
so
yeah
I
think
that's
a
pretty
big
lesson
as
well
like
it's
always
making
sure
you're
prepared
like
at
the
end
of
the
day
the
only
like
obviously
there's
a
couple
your
close
family
are
gonna
pick
you
up
when
you're
down
but
most
other
people
aren't
really
gonna
give
a
fuck
you're
on
your
own
bro
like
they're
worried
about
you're
in
your
own
little
world
or
whatever
and
everyone's
got
their
own
shit
going
on
100%
everyone
as
now
as
they
get
older
man
like
people
different
troubles
business
troubles
divorce
separated
you know
no money
because
they're
gambling
drugs
like
there's
just
that
many
things
out
there
you
don't
realize
because
a lot
of
people
keep
it
to
themselves
and
as
you're
getting
older
like
you know
when
you're
a kid
and you're
like
what
are
mum
and
dad
fighting
about
now
I
get
it
why
is
mum
in
the
mood
life
ain't
that
bad
you're
coming
home
from
school
I
tell
them
every
day
I
tell
them
every
single
day
you
have
to
realize
these
are
the
best
years
of
your
life
you're
getting
fed
you're
getting
your
bum
wiped
you
have
to
go
to
school
hang
with
your
mates
you
get
your
lunch
made
for
you
in
the
morning
you
come
home
your
lunch
is
made
for
you
you
sit
on
the
couch
you
go
to
bed
you
get
10
hours
of
the
cucumbers
on
and
you're
back
going
at
it
smell
the
roses
I
got
that
off
my
mate
Shane
Gregory
from
Port
Macquarie
when I
made
my
day
to
you
and he
goes
mate
congratulations
but always
make sure
you smell
the
roses
so
that's
why
I've
always
like
I've
got
a
confidence
about
me
but
fuck
I'll
talk
to
anyone
and
try
and
be
as
humble
as
I
can
because
I
never
think
I'm
better
than
anyone
but
you
gotta
be
confident
so
I
want
to
touch
on
something
you
said
Dan
about
like
the
challenges
in
life
and
all
the
different
shit
how
adversity
makes
you
stronger
and
I
feel
like
kids
these
days
and
you
agree
with
this
it's
like
mum
and
dad
are
protecting
them
like
the
younger
kids
these
days
are
so
protected
and
obviously
social
media
and
getting
smoked
on
social
media
from
bullies
or
your
peers
or
whatever
but
I
just
feel
like
young
kids
are
a lot
more
protected
and
insulated
from
the
troubles
of
the
world
these
days
they've
got
all
the
answers
right
on
the
phone
I'm
going
to
have
to
ask
someone
like
back
when
more
kids
like
you're
getting
pornos
and
hiding
them
at
home
exactly
why
is
his
pages
so
sticky
why
is
his
stocks
so
stiff
I
just
feel
like
with
young
kids
these
days
I
feel
like
there
is
a
sense
of
entitlement
like
phones
are
number
one
cause
of
that
like
they
just
type
in
their
phone
and
they
get
the
answer
just
like
that
we
never
had
that
opportunity
when
more
kids
growing
up
what
are
you
guys
giving
your
kids
do
they
have
iPads
iPads
not
phone
my
eldest
is
10
and
I
said
he's
not
getting
a
phone
to
high
school
or
if
he
does
it
would
be
just
a
calling
cause
he's
now
going
out
and
riding
with
his
mates
riding
on
his
bike
yeah
he
goes
riding
with
his
bike
I
haven't
seen
a
kid
ride
a
bike
in
like
five
years
ago
we
were
not
talking
about
this
kind
of
stuff
I
remember
when he
had his
first
kid
he
goes
mate
you
wouldn't
know
the
feeling
I
go
bro
I
got
two
of
them
at
home
he's
had
three
he
goes
you
don't
understand
what
it's
like
three
I
don't
you
win
that
one
it's
an
important
conversation
cause
as you
get
older
I
always
find
people
open
up
to
me
it's
probably
the
reason
why
I
enjoy
podcasting
but
a lot
of
kids
don't
have
great
childhoods
no way
but
that's
how
the
emotional
trauma
from
your
childhood
affects
your
adversity
later
on
in
life
because
I
remember
a
lot
of
shit
from
when
I
was
a
kid
but
stuff
that
resonates
or
affects
you
I
was
a
skinny
kid
with
big
buck
teeth
you
grow
in
your
body
but
things
from
back
then
you
still
remember
bullying
different
I
saw
my
mate
put
up
something
the
other
day
his
daughter
getting
bullied
at
school
don't
you
ever
get
involved
in
that
I
agree
with
that
what
happens
if
they
are
getting
bullied
I'm
just
like
mate
I
go
to
the
thing
because
then
I
found
out
these
kids
are
trouble
and
I'm
like
it's
because
their
life
isn't
good
at
home
and
you
know
different
movies
you
send
across
the
year
the
kids
who
are
doing
the
bullying
have
fucked
up
childhood
hard
home
life
a lot
of
the
time
I
started
teaching
him
how
to
box
he's
a
really
nice
kid
he's
a
sweetheart
some
kids
just
don't
have
that
you
used
to
scare
him
remember
if
your
beard
on
the
phone
he
loves
all
the
boys
now
he
loves
footy
so
you're
talking
about
parenting
like
how
are you
guys
going
to
nurture
your
kids
not
to
be
as
soft
but
is
that
alright
no
for
sure
you
go
first
it's
a
good
question
it's
something
that's
not
easily
answered
you
don't
want to
sound
like
too
much
of
a
hard
ass
at
the
same
time
I
feel
like
they
should
respect
everyone
no matter
what
their
circumstances
are
it
goes
back
to
bullying
I
could
open
heart
and say
I
never
done
that
as
a
kid
I
despise
bullies
growing
up
I
feel
like
treat
everyone
equally
no matter
what
their
circumstances
I
don't
know
parenting
keep
learning
on the
go
I
don't
think
there's
a
right
answer
everyone
is
unique
in
their
own
way
I'm
doing
what
my
wife
thinks
is
right
you're
learning
everything
on the
run
every
year
I
read
raising
young
boys
and
raising
young
boys
young
girls
and
the
making
of
young
men
just
to
refresh
because
every
year
they're
going
through
different
shit
but
I
think
you
can
only
because
we've
had a
few
things
this
year
where
me
got
calls
about
stuff
that's
happened
at
school
and
one
of
them
was
quite
bad
and
you
just
got
to
sit
them
down
and
try
and
talk
them
through
it
and
explain
why
they
can't
do
it
but
back
to
Oli
he's
got
more
going
in
than
me
in
terms
of
playing
footy
Roy
plays
in
Oli's
team
and
we're
doing
rolling
rock
they're
10
but
they're
an
unbelievable
football
side
they haven't
lost in
two years
and
Oli
calls
out
Ezra
he's
Roy's
son
he
goes
I'm
going
to
run
at
you
comes
off
the
back
fence
Ezra
folds
him
like
I'm
talking
the
best
tackle
exactly
Roy
Acetasi
he
gets
back
up
but
instead
of
doing
Jeremy
Latimer
and
hiding
behind
his
mate
he
gets
up
and
he
fucking
goes
again
and
the
next
one
he's
like
Ezra
where
are
you
and
they
just
kept
going
at
him
I
know
he
cried
I
was
that
proud
of
him
if
you
have
that
attitude
in
life
you
get
back
up
you're
going
to
win
I
don't
give
you
shit
but
you
finish
it
and
do
your
best
they're
my
only
things
and
have
a
crack
I
like
that
he
talks
about
throwing
a
punch
earlier
using
social
media
to
call
out
some
people
who
did
he
call
out
what's
happening
with
the
Paul
Vaughn
situation
why
did
you
call
him
out
are
you
looking
to
have
a
fight
100%
what
originally
happened
I was
Jean
Zach
Lomax
I
remember
him
and
Frizz
had a
run
in
on
the
field
last
year
and
I
started
Jean
Zach
Lomax
why
don't
you
have
a
crack
with
Frizz
he's
been
boxing
for a
while
he's
doing
boxing
with
him
he's
best
bloke
in
the
world
he's
one of
my
favourite
men
in
the
world
I
go
why
don't
you
fight
Frizz
next
off
season
I'll
fight
Vaughn
he
told
Vaughn
he
messaged
me
on
Instagram
he
probably
one of
the
guys
I
played
with
he
messaged
me
on
Instagram
he
goes
when
are
we
cracking
on
next
off
season
he
goes
done
handshake
when
I'm
cracking
the
street
or
the
ring
nothing
said
from
that
day
I
started
training
boxing
I
was
like
my
motivation
my
fuck
it
like
because
I
always
wanted
to
experience
what
a
boxer's
experience
like
say
if
you
don't
tie
in
or
rugby
league
field
your
mate's
going
to
have
your
back
you're
on
your
own
and
like
that
and
this is what I was
saying to him
today like
if you're
walking out
in front
of a
few
thousand
people
man
and
you
know
like
even
footy
like
when
your
nuts
go
up
in
your
mouth
like
yeah
get
that
adrenaline
feeling
so
I
always
wanted
to
feel
that
feeling
so
anyway
I
started
boxing
out
and
then
I
caught
him
out
on
Jim's
podcast
but
he
won't
agree
to
it
and
I
said
well
mate
you
said
you
would
next
off
season
and
he
just
had
a
crack
me
a
benish
football
I
I'm
talking
about
boxing
here
bro
fuck
not
footy
but
anyway
so
I've
spoken
to
someone
there's
going
to
be
a
fight
night
in
January
next
year
which
hopefully
I'm
on
opponent
not
100%
yet
but
likely
you
know
who
it
is
whereabouts
Gold Coast
Exhibition
Centre
yeah
so
you
said
Simi
yeah
no
I was
talking
to him
about
it
today
yeah
no
no
no
no
because
I said
I can't
get
the
other
fella
who
they
said
they
potentially
have
I've
spoken
to
Simi
yeah
I agree
with that
yeah
because
we're
having a bit
of a tilt
one time
and it was
me
him
and Darcy
and they're
like
let's
have
a fight
him
and Darcy
yeah
you
wouldn't
want
to
I don't
know
how
Gallon
got
through
the
round
with
him
he's
so
powerful
and big
you should
see him
now
bro
he's
just
been
training
I think
he's
off
the
pits
and stuff
now
his
body's
a joke
shredded
or
muscle
he's
looking
jacked
how big
is he
now
118
kilos
pure
muscle
just
all
muscle
yeah
he doesn't
drink
or anything
he never
drank
he had
a bit
of a
drink
when
they
won
the
comp
16
2003
when
he was
a kid
but
he had
a decision
when he was
a young
bloke
to go
one way
or the
other
and he
chose
footy
which
wasn't
a bad
move
he's
one of
my
really
close
mates
he doesn't
drink
and he's
very well
behaved
he's
my big
brother
but I'm
the naughty
little
brother
he has
to pull
in
to line
all the
time
I feel
disappointed
when I
tell him
I had
a drink
on the
weekend
what do
you have
to do
on the
weekend
too
quiet
you're
going to
tell him
he actually
set me
up for
my first
nro
did he
he's
a fucking
gun
he's
such a
good
footballer
obviously
grew up
out in
the
reef
living
down
in
god's
country
in
the
shire
he's
done
really
well
in
life
it's
not
god's
country
it is
god's
country
better than
bondi
no it's
not
it is
well why
do you
keep
coming
to the
beach
road
hotel
every
weekend
that's
what
nico
too
yeah
I was
with
him
on the
first
night
I went
there
and that
was one
of the
great
nights
that
one
yeah
what's
the vibe
like
he's
getting
bullied
from
jake
turpin
jake
turpin
and sam
walker
oh no
that was
the next
time
at the
races
and we
got
kicked
out
do you
remember
our
first
time
meeting
each
other
yeah
at
rogers
club
yeah
absolutely
chewed
my
ear off
the way
it came
up
out
with
a
mop
just
absolutely
slobbered
everywhere
I was
thinking
about this
the other
day
like
it's
pretty
sad
like
the
word
lisp
has
got
a
niss
in
it
like
that's
I
know
are you
saying
that
because
of
my
lisp
yeah
man
I
hate
hearing
myself
say
s's
it's
fucking
that
hard
I
actually
had
on
radio
or was
it
podcast
or did
they
go
oh
no
no
when I
was
emcee
a
couple
of
weeks
ago
at
an
event
and
like
after
like
the
first
half
an
hour
they
go
oh
your
lisp
has
actually
come
back
a
bit
so
you
mustn't
be
nervous
anymore
so
when I
must
be
nervous
it's
really
out
there
I'm
like
fuck
don't
tell
me
that
now
I'm
gonna
think
about
it
when
I'm
talking
do
you
hate
listening
to
yourself
oh
mate
he
always
used
to
film
I was
thinking
before
we
should
have
put
a
little
cocktail
umbrella
on
the
end
of
the
set
you
should
have
put
plastic
over
it
actually
last
question
for
you
I
struggle
with
this
question
a lot
individually
but
I
think
when
you're
in
football
your
definition
of
success
is
defined
for
you
and
that's
through
winning
a
comp
now
you
guys
have
transitioned
out
of
it
being
business
owners
former
rugby
league
players
and
most
importantly
dads
how
do
you
guys
define
success
now
do
you
want
me
to
go
first
it's
all
this
game
I
like
I've
spoken
about
how
I used
to
feel
different
things
with
money
and
obviously
yeah
footy
was on
wins and
losses
but
me
is
being
happy
and
wanting
to
do
what
I'm
doing
every
day
and
obviously
you
know
that
there's
a mixture
of things
around
that
so
one
being
the best
fucking
dad
I
can
be
being
a
good
mate
being
diligent
and
training
and
doing
things
like
that
every
day
ticking
boxes
like
with
me
morning
routine
I
do
a
night
routine
all
that
stuff
is
and
like
these
businesses
I'm
building
which
are
progressively
getting
better
and
I
get
happiness
from
all
yeah
literally
that's
so
for
me
it's
happiness
now
and
because
again
I
haven't
been
happy
at
different
times
since
I
retired
so
I've
now
built
I
know
I'm
slowly
working
out
what
works
for
me
again
I
just
got
diagnosed
ADHD
which
you
wouldn't
believe
but
so
my
next
part
is
working
on
my
focus
and
being
fully
ingrained
in
my
work
and
my
mobile
phone
can
be
a
bit
of
a
distraction
so
I
have
to
put
that
away
so
that's
the
next
part
to
keep
building
my
happiness
I
think
to
be
fully
ingrained
and
immersed
what
I'm
doing
so
even
like
at
the
gym
yesterday
I
try
and
be
present
more
so
I
bring
myself
into
where
I
am
because
sometimes
again
with ADHD
I'm
fucking
thinking
about
four
o'clock
this
afternoon
what
am
I
doing
at
seven
but
instead
like
being
present
in this
room
with
you
boys
and
chatting
and
talking
about
old
memories
and
talking
about
transition
and
looking
back
on
my
struggles
and
now
like
keeping
trying
to
build
these
wins
every
single
day
so
that
helps
me
keep
me
happy
sorry
with
ADHD
like
one
what
made
you
want
to
get
yourself
checked
yeah
no
no
so
mate
to be
transparent
I
started
to
see
so
I
could
feel
my
issues
like
and
what
I
want
to
understand
why
I
am
the
way
I
am
and
he
goes
have
you
ever
been
tested
for
ADHD
I'm
like
no
he
goes
do
you
want
it
I'm
like
yeah
I
fucking
love
to
know
how
do
they
test
it
you
have
to
fill
out
like
this
thing
and
he
sent
it
to
Nat
my
ex
because
she
knows
me
better
than
most
and
they
just
collab
the
scores
to
work
it
out
and
he's
like
yeah
you're
pretty
high
do
you
want
to
be
medicated
no
so
this
is
he
goes
and
my
boxing
trainer
he
was
telling
me
about
his
son
right
so
you
can
take
four
hour
pills
or
eight
hour
pills
so
you
don't
have
to
have
it
every
day
and
because
I
don't
want
to
be
like
people
like
me
or
enjoy
being
around
me
because
of
my
energy
and
how
I
am
so
does
that
take
away
anything
from
you
though
no
it
helped
with
my
focus
and
I
could
take
it
Monday
Wednesday
Friday
and
it
work
on
that
day
so
it's
not
like
something
you
have
to
have
Monday
to
Sunday
yeah
so
I
haven't
had it
yet
so
I
think
I
will
after
speaking
to
my
mate
today
who
told
me
about
mushrooms
kind
of
like
a
big
thing
at
the
moment
I've
experimented
just
in the
social
aspect
and
I'm
approved
for
medicinal
cannabis
oh
yeah
yeah
but
can
mushrooms
go
like
either
way
like
can't
you
get
like
remaining
this
massive
trip
or
can
also
like
yeah
I
don't
know
there's
a
actual
phobia
of
mushrooms
and
like
a
lot
of
it
stem
from
our
parents
because
they
come
through
a
certain
time
but
remember
they'll
be like
don't
touch
the
mushrooms
they're
poisonous
did
you
ever
hear
that
yeah
of
course
yeah
jimmy
maloney
phobia
remember
his
mushroom
little
portobello
what's
the
jim
jim
been
up
to
bro
he
tried
to
ring
me
last
night
and
then
I
messaged
him
back
he
goes
oh
it's
one
o'clock
in
portugal
my
son's
sick
I
ring
in
the
morning
he's
got
a
little
bit
of
like
he's
absolutely
living
a
dream
of
it
yeah
I
know
but
you
should
yeah
sorry
so
last
question
before
we
get
to
you
saucy
when
you
got
that
label
did
you
feel
bitter
for
it
or
was
there
a
transition
period
like
oh
fuck
I
don't
want
to
be
labeled
as
that
or
were
you
labeled
as
what
ADHD
oh
no
man
I
couldn't
care
no
way
no
I
was
like
tell
me
something
I
didn't
know
like
I
was
pretty
sure
I
had
it
it
was
just
confirmation
of what
I
thought
but
nah
mate
people
bipolar
depressed
whatever
like
you
just
have
to
manage
that
and
yeah
like
so
for
me
I
think
I
will
get
on
tablet
so
I
can
help
you
know
I
feel
like
just
live
in
the
moment
comes
with
the
good
comes
with
the
bad
but
there's
always
lessons
in
all
things
and
also
just
working
on
myself
which
comes
from
happiness
as
well
like
you
know
I
love
it's
no
secret
I
love
training
I
find
like
that's
a
good
escape
for
me
de-stressor
and
I
have
dabbled
and
dabbled
with
meditation
but
I
feel
like
I've
struggled
to
kind
of
focus
part
of
it
some
people
that
say
that
like
yourself
what
you're
saying
like
I
don't
have
fully
understood
about
meditating
like
the
focus
of
it
like
where
it
takes
you
so
with
that
I
think
happiness
is
like
you
said
very
very
important
man
like
it's
something
that
I
don't
know
like
it's
I
think
it's
very
hard
to
replicate
that
true
happiness
when
you're
kind
of
playing
rugby
league
and
I
don't
know
if
you
kind
of
feel
that
same
thing
I
don't
know
if
you've
reached
that
same
level
of
happiness
yet
I
don't
think
I've
reached
that
same
level
of
happiness
yet
but
I
have
with
my
kids
like
I
just
had
my
my
wife
just
gave
birth
to
my
beautiful
daughter
Gia
and
the
feeling
I had
with
that
I
think
that
trumps
pretty
much
I
think
with
20s
and
especially
in
sports
we
associate
happiness
with
excitement
and
you
get
excitement
from
winning
and
that
locker room
vibe
was
cool
but
if
you're
going
up
there's
always
going
to
be
a
come
down
where
for
me
I
sort
of
associate
happiness
now
with
peace
like
everything's
good
right
now
there's
no
that's
something
I
can't
sit
back
and
take
a
breath
I
feel
like
I
need
to
always
be
on
the
go
I
love
ticking
boxes
I
love
setting
goals
and
the
satisfaction
I
get
from
actually
accomplishing
that
like
again
excitement
happiness
but
I
think
yeah
find
that
peace
I'm
not
there
yet
but
that's
something
I'll
be
striving
for
me
neither
but
I'm
chasing
it
you're
building
the
things
now
you
spoke
about
your
training
and
stuff
it's
doing
the
right
things
when
you
do
fall
out
of
routine
as
a
professional
athlete
you
see
boys
going
to
chase
highs
with
drugs
gambling
all
the
wrong
things
it's
doing
the
right
things
you're
ticking
them
boxes
you'll
find
it
you're
never
going
to
replace
running
out
in
front
of
30,000
people
and
scoring
three
tries
not
that I
did
that
but
you
did
I
did
that
too
you
have
to
adjust
to
what
your
new
norms
are
you
can't
replicate
that
feeling
with
your
babies
or
they
telling
you
I
love
you
or
you
know
you're
doing
a good
job
as a
father
but
then
getting
the
wins
with
business
and
all
the
other
stuff
you're
doing
and
Ice
does
that
in
his
business
now
still
the
same
feeling
for
me
personally
I'm
not
there
yet
I'm
still
getting
that
pull
from
rugby
league
but
also
I'm
getting
pulled
in
the
other
direction
you
know
what
it's
time
just
to
kind
of
you
got
all
your
ducks
in
a
row
just
give
it
up
but
again
like
I'm
just
getting
pulled
in
two
separate
directions
it's
not
necessarily
bad
but
I was
in the
same
position
when I
first
left
football
I
had
to
play
for
the
Mounties
just
to
get
money
just
to
get
by
and
same
thing
I
felt
like
I
was
always
in
between
two
worlds
but
I
found
once
I
focused
in
on
one
thing
it's
probably
a little
bit
of
advice
for
you
Latsy
once
I
zoned
in
on
my
main
thing
that
makes
the
most
money
for
me
or
gives
me
the
most
excitement
I
felt
like
everything
around
just
kind
of
fell
into
three
pillars
I
believe
in
knowledge
is
power
first
and
foremost
passionate
and
self
belief
I
feel
like
you
have
those
three
things
I
feel
like
you
go
really
far
in
life
and
whatever
you
put
your
mind
to
so
that's
pretty
much
what
I've
been
living
off
love
that
it's
a great
way to
wrap up
the
episode
so
boys
thanks
for
jumping
on
I
appreciate
your
time
and
company
as
always
and
reach
out
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